You are invited...

... To my self-pity party!!  I really try to not let things bother me sooo much, but I need to vent today! 

It has been a rough week.  Any teacher out there knows that the end of the year is wonderful and awful at the same time!  It is wonderful, because after all the grading is done you can look back at your kids and see how much they have grown (academically and physically).  I teach first grade and my do they grow from age 6 to 7!  My kids are so tall now and are reading sooooo well!  I am very proud of them!  But, at the same time, it is soooo rough right now!  We have 8 and 1/2 days left of school and every moment is a battle with my students!  I think that they think because it is sooo warm and almost the end of the year, they can do what they please and they do not have to do what I ask them to do.  Everything is a battle or a temper tantrum.  To make matters worse, the Clomid makes my temper very short.  It has been soo rough this week!  I am looking forward to the long weekend!

The other emotional issue I've been dealing with is the abundance of fertile women I work with!  WOW!  There are 5 pregnant co-workers.  Yesterday, there was a shower for the one girl.  It was hard.  Especially when a teacher at my table said "Oh, I know someone else who is pregnant.  But I can't say who quite yet."  That left everyone else trying to figure out who it was.  I kept getting looked at.  I know it was probably just me being paranoid though.  I wanted to scream "It's not me!!!!  It can't be me!  I'm not even ovulating!!!"  But, even though it is depressing and I get very upset about it, I am happy for the pregnant ladies.

It's rough finding someone to talk to about this with.  I love J, but he doesn't get it.  My best friend is about to deliver her baby, so I don't want to rain on her parade.

It's just been a rough week for me!  I can only think and hope that it has to get easier.